...you actually gave a shit about me, when you did show me even the littlest things that meant a lot! A time when you would give me your undivided attention, and not make excuses that you have to run and cut our conversation short because someone or something else had your attention. A time when you really DID know me! There was a time when I WAS IMPORTANT TO YOU! But, that was the first time around... this second time, you really didn't give a shit, you didn't even try to come see me at my home, never asked me "how are you?" and really mean it by not switching the conversation to about YOU!

Steph, I've been reading all the past emails you've sent me... from the beginning - starting from the invite to EB Greens over 4 years ago, and can clearly see over the hundreds of emails when you stopped thinking of me and where I started hanging onto merely threads.

You can't explain what happened... so I guess I must find out for myself.

Did you ever ask yourself why you kept me around for so long???

You haven't realized that I let you have an "open" relationship with me??? I knew you were denying being in a relationship with me over and over again, I knew you cheated on me... and I let it go, without much fuss until Sunday, May 6th!

Once again, you have past girlfriends that you once loved back in your life... and the circle continues for you, and you deleted me from Facebook and whatever else, as YOUR closure! There is no closure for me yet.... because I can't erase the past 4 years and feelings I have for you. I guess you can do so more easily, because it was over for you a long time ago... you just didn't care to tell me or it would haven taken too much effort on your part to do it.

BTW... you never returned my call on a Wednesday evening 3 weeks ago... I didn't leave a message, but I'm sure you saw my missed call at some point. You just can't be bothered with me!