For the past few weeks I've been running on adrenalin - planning one of the best conventions in the company's history! The excitement of having our Prime Minister attend was thrilling! Everything went off perfectly!

I was feeling on TOP of the world... this is my time to shine on all levels of my life... or so I thought! I came to realize how much my personal life is more important than work. That HIS feelings for me mean everything...I was convinced that he does love me... but I'm sure now he just has a "fondness" for me, and I have a love for him.

I’ve been reading too much into the little things when there was nothing to read into. The talks about buying a house or renovating his current house is so he can have a dog once again and more room for his cars and bikes... nothing about me, nothing about us. Then again, in 4 years, we've never talked about us or about me.

HA, and I thought this was going to be MY year!

Now, the adrenalin is gone, I'm sick with a cold that I've been fighting off for the past few weeks and I’m at an all time low!

One of my flaws: I like to have all my ducks in line per se.